Don’t get me started. No, seriously. Don’t. Because if there’s one thing that can slap you into realizing you need healing, it’s that constant lack of motivation.
Whaaaaaaaaattttt???!! Let me tell you something—there was a time in my life when simply keeping my head above water felt like a full-time job. And guess what? I was failing at it.
Everything I did in that season? Auto-pilot. Wake up, survive, repeat. No joy. No drive. Just existing. And the worst part? I was beating myself up for it.
What are you talking about? Consistency??! Please. I was struggling to remember if I had eaten, let alone stay consistent with anything productive. But let me be honest—at the heart of it, I was just being way too hard on myself.
You see, I felt like I had wasted 10 years of my life. A marriage that drained me instead of watering me. A spouse who worked overtime to put me down. My ideas, my dreams, my aspirations? All dismissed, trampled on like they meant nothing.
And in my head? Oh, I thought I needed to work 100 times harder to make up for the “lost time.” To catch up. To prove to myself and the world that I was still worthy.
But you know what happened instead?
I crashed.
Yep. Full-on breakdown. Crying on the floor, questioning my entire existence, kind of crash. Because newsflash—you can’t heal while running a race against time.
So here’s what I learned, and what I need you to hear:
Be. Easy. On. Yourself.
Healing isn’t about sprinting to make up for what you lost. It’s about recognizing that you are not lost. Your journey didn’t end because of that toxic relationship, that setback, that “wasted” time.
You are still here. Still breathing. Still becoming. And that’s enough.
So today, I want you to do something for me—no, for you. Take a deep breath and say this out loud:
“I am not behind. I am exactly where I need to be. Healing is my priority, and I refuse to rush it.”
And if you need to rest? Rest. If all you can do today is exist? Exist.
Trust me, your time is not lost. It’s being redeemed.
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